SM4ever

SM4ever --- riiiiggghhhhttt
You were "really worried" about me? Why?

And when you talked to me - you were pretty quick to hang up - you really missed me --- riiighhhtt
Its all a moot point --all of this
I am thinking to myself now... was 3 minutes on the phone worth all this that I have worked so hard for?..starting over the battle of my heart vs. mind....FUCK
Love doesnt reign supreme....
Lets be honest...if it did it would
 --- it doesnt
Words are words
And I want a grand gesture - I deserve it - so do you
Words are only a bandaid to the pain
But the real antiseptic is thought and action in to words...

And really --I am still only "missed and loved" in limits....once you are home I imagine I espace your mind and existence...Because I see when you look here is only in the times you are lonely...she keeps you safe and secure..no need to reach for me or miss me as long as shes in your arms.
FML!

Lets be honest here...Love drives me - Racing drives you -- I will never be what you want in the end


Sorry you cant breathe - take that as a sign that I am no good for you.

Ok Ive said enough - ily take care

(this all sounds awful and mean - I dont mean it to - I have just so many emotions and things that I feel - I do love you ... the ball has always been in your court and I am trying to obviously play tennis with an imaginary love -- so it just causes me frustration - its not your fault - I am my own worst enemy)