Daunting

Maybe I create all these stories in my head
It's hard not to when you don't hear I have said
My love is not free it entraps my soul
To be loved in return is all I need to be whole
This mess of beauty and darkness can not convey how I feel
So alive at one moment the other my heart is so ill
My longing to be loved by you daunts my very existence
Giving so much being faced with resistance
To have faith is a task I fight everyday
When I'm left abandoned not a word that I say
Has any affect or not worth your time it's time that I face you will never be mine

Please acknowledge my feelings how I feel
Acknowledge it ... To completely ignore me and make no attempt to communicate with me or take to heart my broken heart is like jabbing me with a dagger and killing me
But even death may be better than the pain of you not caring

Gone

It could have been so simple but you turned this into chaos
Your charming words a disguise just enough to make me fall in love
And leave me distorted with visions of grandeur love that never really existed I your heart for me
Your delay and reason or shall I say excuses as to why you couldn't leave get "at least for now" but really you meant never
You vowed to take care of her and your vows held true
I suppose that should be a trait I admire but the constant pulling of my heart to you only to cut me off like a fishing line stuck on a branch in the empty sea
I am floating in wonderment how I was never enough never good enough all you said is that I was all you ever dreamed of your " angel" but now I am your angel of death which you can now only remember as a distant memory
Life sucked out of me and now I am gone
You'll never have to choose now
Your love filled me full of life now it has suffocated any sense I had and now I am gone forever
Dead

The Rose

We have had a good run of things I suppose
My heart has withered like a rose
My petals crimson red from the blood I have shed have been given to you in their full bloom
I am nothing but thorns in this storm however I know the sun will shine again
And someday I will open able to love again
The rain of my tears will nourish my roots and I'll be able to be give again to another soul in which will appreciate my scent and beauty
Until then I know that this seed will grow again in everlasting light
And because of our time I have learned that I must save the best for last
Everlasting love

Worried

I know I push you to the Nth degree wishing you'd have time for me
However I know I push too far tip open so many scars
I love you I'm sorry for my selfish ways
I'm worried your falling to disarray
I love you so much and care for you
Please forgive my egotistical truths
Your amazing my love the one I care so much
Can't imagine this life without your you touch
I love you please take care of yourself

Eternal Love

"you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens". -Rumi

When our eyes connect pupil to pupil iris to iris souls intertwine
And it's as if every scar is open again from every life we ever lived together
I bleed again and the words "I love you" is like salt and lemon being squeezed and poured into my existence
Reminding me that this life we have chosen to only meet...but not so blessed to combine our love into the loving cup of glory we know that we so desire
My thighs twitch and I feel this throbbing between my legs
My heart beats faster, my mind races to islands where no one but you and I exist
I see sunsets and sunrises with a glance and your smile takes me to places only the greatest discoverers of the real world have ever seen
I miss you before you leave but know you live in me and so I live in you
And love this extraordinary will be eternal

Sweet Pic

Health Tip

Our Immune System!

INFLAMMATION cannot live in a highly Alkaline bloodstream! And Inflammation cannot exist when our immune systems are healthy.

More and More we are realizing that Inflammation results in (Cancer, Heart Disease, Diabetes, Arthritis, Gout, Kidney Disease...) which plays a huge role in taking our vitality away from us and keeping is sick, tired and depressed.
...
If this is true, then what foods help contribute to keeping inflammation under control?

By eating a high alkaline diet and drinking highly alkalized juices actually helps our Immune System stay strong so it can naturally not only fight off viruses, infections but most importantly...fight off inflammatory diseases!

THIS is why it's crucial we keep our juice intake highly ALKALINE in nature, but also our foods! Here's a list of the top 10 Alkaline foods:

1. Spinach
2. Cucumbers
3. Celery
4. Almonds
5. Lemons/Limes
6. Alfalfa Sprouts
7. Asparagus
8. Apples
9. Garlic
10. Grapefruit

Remember, you can juice these as well! Also ALL LEAFY greens are highly alkaline, such as Swiss Chard, Kale, etc.,. Here's a great link to read that shows you just what alkaline foods are, and how to use them in your diet. INFLAMMATION cannot live in a highly Alkaline bloodstream
source:Jay Kordich

What we were

Amazing how the love we felt at one time brightened the skies opened our eyes and we saw no limits
This time has changed us constrained us and now we are just like everyone else
The extraordinary was gifted to us from the universe and heavens above
But we chose societies standards over our love

Our soundtrack

It's fucked up how music can create this movie in my head
"No other Way". - jack Johnson

Music makes me wrote this story that is a movie not real-"it's not real mommy" but I know that we ate a notebook a movie a story a book and doesn't mean it's a happy ending but we have a 10 month story that goes back lifetimes

I just know that no matter where we go no matter how old we are we need to go to Jack Johnson concert together ...like "Wicked" he sings the soundtrack of our life ... We share the same soul ...

Questioning my previous ill kiss you 2much 2much

Now that I wrote that in black n white I get scared my words ... Because although I say work on it I don't know If that's what I REALLY want but it may be best for us...?but fuck I am going to email R and ask to BBQ I will miss the fuck out of you if you aren't my BFF everyday just saying fuck I love you bh

Working on it

No more rug sweeping here I am working on it.. So you know working on my marriage ... Confront talk communicate deal with every issue... Well pick my battles but going to work on it ... So you know tonight that's where I am now ... I think you need to also see what you can mend ... We have good lives and no one knows what tomorrow will bring.., Ifly forever know that feel that look in the mirror and see me in you
I miss you every minute of everyday but we need to try for the ones that have loved us truly everyday that we have been loving each other..., they are good people although we are better together we will be in due time even if it's in another life when we are both cats (Vanilla Sky -movie)

No good night text :(

No good night text :(

Listen to this- copy and paste link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=opgd_77A5U4&sns=em

Long time

It's been almost a week since you've been here
If you care to see my thoughts my words of emotion and devotion to this love affair... So many past that you never saw maybe when you miss me you'll come here and absorb it all...
For months never looked at.. If you want to this place is for me for you

Another life

I don't want to be the other woman anymore
The thought of you going home every night acting like everything is just fine... Avoiding any confrontation and taking no step to leave your life your wife and celebrating valentines day with a bottle of wine after such a " big fight" seeing your Facebook and your happy valentines day to her typed the same way u texted me. I'm sure she at least got a card... Maybe not. Like I said love is love but just because we love one another we have built lives. Go home and renew your adornment for her and all the beauty that surrounds you and I'll see you in another life.

Wonder

So I sit and wonder am I reaching for a mirage in this stale desert?
Looking for flowers in this desolate horizon
Am I searching for a kingdom that is only in my imagination
Could it really be what I envision
Or just a dream

Rumi

As you live deeper in the heart,
the mirror gets clearer and cleaner.

Rumi

 

 

Love came,
and became like blood in my body.
It rushed through my veins and
encircled my heart.
Everywhere I looked,
I saw one thing.
... Love's name written
on my limbs,
on my left palm,
on my forehead,
on the back of my neck,
on my right big toe…
Oh, my friend,
all that you see of me
is just a shell,
and the rest belongs to love.

Rumi

Remember Me

The touch of your fingers carressing up and down my back over the backs of my arm is undescribable -the closest I can come to explaining is ---
Magic - I feel your love melt into me.

The love is mine for the rest of my days, knowing that the way you look at me is special and that look is for me and only me..and the love is real.

But just because you love me doesn't mean that you have to be with me
You have built a life as I have too....and although our love exists in the souls of the earth
It will live through eternity and it will meet like a moth to a flame - in whatever life it can

Know that I love you - as Rumi said - you have my heart and soul already so there is no use in giving those to you....look at yourself in the mirror and remember me.

Jason (wow) Happy Valentines Day

Consuming Love

This love has been ever consuming, obsessive, borderline madness that I question its authenticity of true

I wake in the morning and I look around and all I miss is you

I look around for your presence, a phone call a text a word of affirmation

And I feel desolate when I see that there as been no attempt to reach me

Music sings to my heart and I want your love to feel me in the beats of every love song

I want you to long for me            

Stupid Phone!

My stupid phone app called you... I was looking at texts and then walked to my kitchen before bed and I hear this weird noise.... Look down and my effin phone was calling you 1000% accident
Sorry dude!

Such Great Heights - song for you -- by The Postal Service & Iron & Wine

I am thinking it's a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images and when we kiss
They're perfectly aligned

And I have to speculate
That God himself did make us
Into corresponding shapes
Like puzzle pieces from the clay

And true it may seem like a stretch
But it's thoughts like this that catch
My troubled head when you're away
When I am missing you to death

When you are out there on the road
For several weeks of shows
And when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now, they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we'll stay

I've tried my best to leave
This all on your machine
But the persistent beat
It sounded thin upon listening

And that frankly will not fly
You'll hear the shrillest highs
And lowest lows with the windows down
When this is guiding you home

They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now, they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we'll stay

Go For It!

Living the Law of Attraction

Remove doubt

Observe what you want to be

Surround yourself with people and life – matching the vibration in which you desire.

Eliminate Don’t Not and No from vocabulary – when you say that instead change your words and say WHAT DO I WANT- and reaffirm what you want.

Go on Facebook and search “Living the Law of Attraction” and like that page for me would you? For daily words of wisdom

Getting the CLARITY (is the positive vibrration that puts the energy in motion) of what you DO want – not what you DON’T want…and it will help to manifest what you want.

Stepping back last year I remember saying “I want to feel inspired” “I want true love” “I want the extraordinary” months before you came in my life.

Is it a coincidence….yes, I know because that is “living the law of attraction”

I believe that somewhere in you – you were asking for some of the same – and there I was that cold April morning.

Imagine, write it, include it in your thoughts – believe your thoughts – uncover your doubt.

(What is the story you tell yourself ????
“I cant do that “BECAUSE” ???
– whenever you say “because” after something it means that you have a belief system that you need to remove your “beliefs” that go against what it is you really want and CAN do)

My purpose

Love I love for you...my only purpose in life is love 

I live to love always have

It's always been what I live for

True absolute authentic real love that hits the core of your soul that gives you reason to wake up every morning

My motivation my reason to open my eyes and hit my pillow knowing in the sunlight moon stars that romantic love exists everyday with the right person

Despite daily obligations a reason to come home a reason to exist

Love love love love

All I ever want is that love that changes your world every moment

And shoes you the extraordinary in the ordinary

That love that love is all I ever needed

It is my lifeline my heartbeat my purpose

Love love love fucking real real love 

Where are you love I've been searching for you for 35 years where are you? Come give me a reason to keep breathing 

Randomness

Listen to my music please

" the worst is yet to come... When tomorrow comes and we show everyone they can never take away... The best is yet to come"

"2000 miles and that's alright I'll see you in the morning if that's all right"

Jack Johnson out personal seranader 

"The connection when my words kiss your ear"

God I don't think I have ever made such a beautiful soundtrack in my life for a love like this... Wish you would listen to all the music and FEEL IT!

I made a tape haha a tape for jjs back in the day but the USB of 5 CDs for you is pretty amazing- just sayin'

My dear friend my soul mate my penguin 

"Maybe this mattress will spin on its axis and find me in yours"- John Mayer 

I'm in love with you again by a look fucker! Why do you have this power over me! Damn you it must have been from the centuries of our love in past lives because there is no other explanation. Maybe my imagination of great love... Absolute love... Fuck I live for love and romance ... If I spent as much time in school as I do on love my motivator I would have 7 doctorates or more! Damn... 

"we share the same soul" - jack Johnson 

Music breaks my heart but it opens it up to feel all this madness!

" you have to keep breaking your heart til it opens" -Rumi

" always meant to be your my bird maybe I'm your bee". - Daniel Powter

( this is all music for you from the mix I made you)

Ok friend signing out for now love you more than any words could ever convey but one look  in my eyes and you know what they say! 

KAO!

"ilfyatt" lmao

Randomness

Listen to my music please

" the worst is yet to come... When tomorrow comes and we show everyone they can never take away... The best is yet to come"

"2000 miles and that's alright I'll see you in the morning if that's all right"

Jack Johnson out personal seranader 

"The connection when my words kiss your ear"

God I don't think I have ever made such a beautiful soundtrack in my life for a love like this... Wish you would listen to all the music and FEEL IT!

I made a tape haha a tape for jjs back in the day but the USB of 5 CDs for you is pretty amazing- just sayin'

My dear friend my soul mate my penguin 

"Maybe this mattress will spin on its axis and find me in yours"- John Mayer 

I'm in love with you again by a look fucker! Why do you have this power over me! Damn you it must have been from the centuries of our love in past lives because there is no other explanation. Maybe my imagination of great love... Absolute love... Fuck I live for love and romance ... If I spent as much time in school as I do on love my motivator I would have 7 doctorates or more! Damn... 

"we share the same soul" - jack Johnson 

Music breaks my heart but it opens it up to feel all this madness!

" you have to keep breaking your heart til it opens" -Rumi

" always meant to be your my bird maybe I'm your bee". - Daniel Powter

( this is all music for you from the mix I made you)

Ok friend signing out for now love you more than any words could ever convey but one loom in my eyes and you know what they say! 

KAO!

"ilfyatt" lmao

I love you! So much! I was just looking back at your fb page and saw Yout "penguins only" comment ifly!!!
Friend kisses

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Ilfyatt
"spell that out for me"
" I love fat you all the time"
" your mean"
Lmao
So funny
Ilyawbh! Muah

Bleeding love

I don't want to get into a poor me self sabotage state of mind 

But I suppose somehow when I see you I do

I'm sure you do too

But the life I live when I'm without you is no good

U realize after I see you I'm in love and want you

So if I don't see you it's good

Life is okay I don't care or think

What I'm missin

Then I see your eyes pierce my soul like recent sharpened daggers

And you jab into my heart and I bleed with this cup of love overflowing outside of me waiting to have been released 

I'm in love in love in love

Too much

I miss you

My Son

When you stop and look all around beauty you will find 

Free yourself of dow thoughts and negativity in your mind

The eyes of my son Gods glory it's from his soul

That all we ever need in life is love to feel so whole

Laying on the hammock looking at all the stars above

"keep you warm" he says now that is true love

Searching outside myself when all I need is to look within 

And all the live in the world is what frees us of sin

I see light again with just a shift of my mind

This world is wonderful and the heart of life is kind

My Son

When you stop and look all around beauty you will find 

Free yourself of dow thoughts and negativity in your mind

The eyes of my son Gods glory it's from his soul

That all we ever need in life is love to feel so whole

Laying on the hammock looking at all the stars above

"keep you warm" he says now that is true love

Searching outside myself when all I need is to look within 

And all the live in the world is what frees us of sin

I see light again with just a shift of my mind

This world is wonderful and the heart of life is kind

Words of Wisdom Version 222

Remove doubt it sends negative vibrations.

Delight thyself in the Lord and he shall give you all the desires of your heart. (In other words - have an attitude of gratitude and more will come)

Food for Thought

Thoughts and words cause us to send a vibration....work on your thoughts your feelings and speak positive thoughts...love and light
That which you project you attract.
You found me and I found you in that park many months ago because those vibrations for true love light came from us somewhere and happiness responded to us and matched our vibration.
Send goodness out again and that which you truly want and desire will attract to you.

What you give your attention to - expands.....so be careful about the negative thoughts and feelings.

Energy love and light
Remember
RE - MEMBER yourself with LOVE and HAPPINESS

One Love

A look like a vacuum pulls me into this vortex of ambiguity

How my body flows with a certain energy and reacts without a touch

I fall into this place of uncertainty – how something can be so clear in the depths of my soul

But so doubted in the  realms of my brains perception

Heart vs. Mind a battle of wits from the beginning of time

The deceiving film over our glossed over eyes I wonder if this is reality or only the perception I project to believe this love is true

My hands intertwine with your fingers and your smile sucks my soul back into you and I lose myself again

Where you start and I end – I cannot see

And I suppose that is what love is…is it?

True oneness – absolute wholeness – although I wonder how it can be so real if we can only feel it in moments

Why can it not be forever?

If it  feels like a forever love – infinite that knows no space or time

So I go back to my mind and review my doubts

And believe to perceive it as a childish imagination of fairytale love

I suppose in time, it will all make sense, I just know that in the silence of our minds

The listening to our soul – the answer to our pending questions will come to surface

And the love we imagine will be ever present in which we can no longer deny

So I envision

As I always have – you and I are one

One love

Fear Not -

Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity.”
― Paulo Coelho, Alchemist

Don't give in to your fears. If you do, you won't be able to talk to your heart.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

“Men go to far greater lengths to avoid what they fear than to obtain what they desire.”
― Dan Brown, The Da Vinci Code

“A man that flies from his fear may find that he has only taken a short cut to meet it.”
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Children of Húrin

“Do not be afraid; our fate
Cannot be taken from us; it is a gift.”
― Dante Alighieri, Inferno

“Fear cuts deeper than swords.”
― George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones

“Because fear kills everything," Mo had once told her. "Your mind, your heart, your imagination.”
― Cornelia Funke, Inkheart

“I have accepted fear as part of life – specifically the fear of change... I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back....”
― Erica Jong

“Here is the world. Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Don't be afraid.”
― Frederick Buechner, Beyond Words: Daily Readings in the ABC's of Faith

The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.”
― Joseph Campbell

“And one has to understand that braveness is not the absence of fear but rather the strength to keep on going forward despite the fear.”
― Paulo Coelho

“Fear is a manipulative emotion that can trick us into living a boring life.”
― Donald Miller, A Million Miles in a Thousand Years: What I Learned While Editing My Life

“I believe that every single event in life happens in an opportunity to choose love over fear.”
― Oprah Winfrey

“If you want to control someone, all you have to do is to make them feel afraid.”
― Paulo Coelho

“It's all right to be afraid. You just don't let it stop you from doing your job.”
― Jim Butcher, Fool Moon

“It frightens me, the awful truth, of how sweet life can be...”
― Bob Dylan

“he was afraid of defiling the love which filled his soul.”
― Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina

“Fear is inevitable, I have to accept that, but I cannot allow it to paralyze me.”
― Isabel Allende, The Sum of Our Days: A Memoir

“When you are grateful, fear disappears and abundance appears.”
― Anthony Robbins

“Always remember the acronym for "FEAR" can mean one of two things: Fuck Everything And Run or Face Everything And Recover.”
― Cupcake Brown, A Piece of Cake

“Being terrified but going ahead and doing what must be done—that's courage. The one who feels no fear is a fool, and the one who lets fear rule him is a coward.”
― Piers Anthony, Castle Roogna

“Of all the liars in the world, sometimes the worst are our own fears.”
― Rudyard Kipling, The Collected Works

“The purpose of fear is to raise your awareness not to stop your progress.”
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

“Fear can force obedience, but it can never transform a heart.”
― Stacey Jay, Juliet Immortal

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Your Depression

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Love

Love is worth the fight but you can't be the only one fighting.

Time

This is my place my place to be free

If you want to know my thoughts you know where to find me

Your days have been filled with everyday stress

I feel like somehow it's me that's caused this mess

For the sake of your being I'll do what I can 

To take away my thoughts and you set on your own plan

My love is always here a friend you can have

If more comes about then you may decide on your own

I have been open and here with my thoughts and my heart

I don't want my words to to tear us apart

I will ease up and back off my shields are in place

Do all that I can to hold back from your face 

You are a good person and time will tell

How this story will be either way I wish you well

I am here for you ... Come when you feel it's time

I'll embrace you either way because I love you 

Ok

After Hours

After hours,

The clock ticks on you leave my side and I know that if I wait to hear from you – its my own choice

I can change my number – change my name and no longer sit waiting that you will find me.

Because that way – if you don’t I can say its my choice

But I stay open and here for you to see, I know you can always reach for me

…but you don’t

After hours,

It’s not my time, and the way it looks may never be

And I suppose that’s not my choice, but I don’t have a choice in the matter…as you have shown me

It’s not about what I want…never was.

Imagination

All my imagination

You show me every day that I imagined a love that does not in fact exist

By your constant ignorance, you can never fill this heart with love

You are selfish and even with prompting and straight up telling what it would take to make things right you play dumb

Overtime I will see the real you and pull this veil off of my eyes

Hurting constantly reminds me of how you never cared and eventually that hurt will heal me and I will forget about you forever.

Fooled

I find it to be amazing how the heart will see only what it wants to

I thought about the moments we shared some of the most intimate times simply by a look

A look in which my heart believed was once in a lifetime 

Stripped away from me like skinning an animal to take all the meat from it and devoured so there is nothing left but a trophy 

Conquered in this vast world of many people 

My heart was taken without regard

Not even sure that all I had to be given to feed another soul was ever appreciated each night 

All that is left of me is a shell I have been taken to the taxidermist stuffed with empty parts and the life has left my eyes

I was lured by what I thought was love but only a decoy that fooled me to my death

Strengthened

Strengthened by the constant beating and torture, I barely feel it anymore.
I am as strong as I thought I was and will be able to withstand the current crumbling of my heart
I have no hate for you - however, I feel too close to love you .
As it is the one thing that has brought me to this place of sadness...and in love I do not want pain, that is the last thing I should be feeling....as if it was returned I can bare the distance, but loving alone I can no longer subject myself to the waiting to be loved.
I am lovable and shouldnt have to beg anyone to want to be a part of my beautiful life.

Imprisoned Heart

This is my place of refuge to free my thoughts imprisoning my heart
I long to be free of your memory and only time can fade away what I believed to be so grand
So easily you have trampled my words gestures and love
I'm not sure even time can undo what you have done to me once again
Believing you loved me more than anything in the world
To be so blinded by simple courtesy at times of your convenience
I've been stifled duped made a fool
Love is what I have felt but unrequited is sadness itself
I will be free in time remembering how you never really cared
It was just a day but a day that celebrates my life
No call no words no moment for you to spare and say I'm glad you're alive ...happy birthday
Broke my heart to see that I was not worth a second thought
Forgiveness is giving up hope that the past could be any different
I need to forgive you because the past couldn't be any different
The love you stated was nothing but words your actions have shown me repeatedly that I loved alone
A pint can never fill a gallon and with you I have been left empty
You have destroyed my faith in magic but I  will regain faith again in time
Once these chains of deceit break away and I'll be glad that I didn't take a leap of faith
Because I have already jumped and hanging on a branch and I need to climb out before I fall further to my demise.

Prayer for Peace

God protect my heart quiet my restless mind
Surround me with light and love in my troubled time
Show in me the greatness in this circumstantial sadness
Free my melancholy soul that it saves me from madness
I know God you have a plan and that with every encounter we should learn
Although I may not understand it now I know the tide will turn
May your glory and tidal wave wash over me so deep
That in this time of confusion I'll find peace and sleep
Love me as I should love myself teach me how to be that love and light
That I will not struggle any longer in this beautiful life

Love

I've been tricked cheated lied and fooled
This life I've seen has been at times too cruel
However i know that in it all.., all the shame
I will rise above and grow from my pain
I've survived many heartbreaks and accomplished many things 
And in all that has hurt me I can't lose sight of my dreams
I still believe in magic in extraordinary everyday
Will not be bitter or jaded by the things you say
Hate me hurt me ignore me and flee
But I stand by my instincts that love will set me free
Free us from worry pain or restraints
Love is a healer of many complaints
So I continue to believe that loves the only way to great
It will conquer all and is inedibly my fate 

Lonely love

Calling in the clean up crew...hazmat suit required my poisoned heart needs special care after being fed poisonous lies.
Sweeping up the burnt parts of my soul from the from the destruction of what I thought was love
Lucky I don't just play a doctor on tv I have the power within me to mend every wound from within
And today I start after gathering all the broken pieces of my being ... One by on piece by piece I grow ever more beautiful, the pain I have felt and the years I have cried has opened up strength I didn't even know I had
God has shown me in this path of lonely love that I can love and lose and learn from it ...
although it doesn't all make sense now
The epiphany is teetering and will fall into me
And I will be thankful to you someday even though now I am hurt beyond words.

Unbelievable you are
When someone shows you who they are believe them the first time. It took me over 9 years to really get it... After yesterday and everyone that knows our situation including your best friends dad said even as a friend you take time to say happy birthday. That's totally messed up
And you make no time for a friend for a " love" well not this  love I guess the one you married but not me as it should be. I'm just mad at myself for believing your mouth of lies. Lies lies lies.... You are a piece of work
You don't deserve any more of my words. You couldnt take time to say 2 simple words. I'm disgusted.

It would have taken you 60 seconds at the most to send me a text come on here and wish me a happy birthday! You have shown me who you are and I have given you the benefit of the doubt too many times. This time I believe you. I believe that I am not a priority to you and I believe now that you don't care if you hurt me and care if you make me happy with a simple gesture. You are selfish and I  sorry that I ever believed differently. Really nice of you. You've been away from home for many days. You liked a Facebook birthday status so I know you had time for fb but not time for me not even a minute. You definitely shown me the choice you made and you are not even worth my words any more or even my kindest thoughts. You really are a character beyond words thank you for showing me who you really are before I made the biggest mistake of my life