Rock n Roll / Hip Hop / Techno

Yeah thats about it - thats about all I can listen to in 30days.
Listening to anything poetic music wise reminds me that you are not with me.
breaking.....down....breaking down.

Love = Pain

From Mind Movies - Living the Law of Attraction

If you have to know where you are going - and that you are going to get there...but first you need to fantasize about it - create the picture movie in your mind, and dont worry about the how just go for it.
All the power of the Universe resides in all of us.
Have faith - you can and will have awhat you want - but you need to know what it is you want.

My Inspiration

“Love is like a narcotic. At first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. The next day, you want more. You’re not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you think you can still control things. You think about the person you love for two minutes, and forget them for three hours. But then you get used to that person, and you begin to be completely dependent on them. Now you think about him for three hours and forget him for two minutes. If he’s not there, you feel like an addict who can’t get a fix. And just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you’re willing to do anything for love.”
― Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side. And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly? Life moves very fast. It rushes from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds.”
― Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes

“Anyone who is in love is making love the whole time, even when they're not. When two bodies meet, it is just the cup overflowing. They can stay together for hours, even days. They begin the dance one day and finish it the next, or--such is the pleasure they experience--they may never finish it. No eleven minutes for them.”
― Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes

“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Devil and Miss Prym

“We are travelers on a cosmic journey,stardust,swirling and dancing in the eddies and whirlpools of infinity. Life is eternal. We have stopped for a moment to encounter each other, to meet, to love, to share.This is a precious moment. It is a little parenthesis in eternity.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

“Tears are words that need to be written.”
― Paulo Coelho

When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Devil and Miss Prym

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Wishing for Something to Save Me

Wishing for the fibers of our souls to meet in the wind and create a quilt to warm us in this cold place of distance.
I need you like the ocean needs the moon
I feel the core of my life being ripped out of me
Wishing for a magic wand - a fairy or GAlinda the Witch cast a spell over me to release the thoughts of you consuming me from each hair on my head to the nails on my toes.
I have not even gone one day without you and I am dying inside
I wish I was a bear right now that could go into hibernation for 30 days that I would not be awake to miss you.

Wishing for something to save me.

Space

You need me to leave you alone for you to leave with a clear conscience...I need to remember the ultimate goal is our absolute happiness...and in this space and time is the only way you could ever be mine.

I miss you already
Why does every song remind me of you

Creating all these CDs for you - is masochistic of me listening to it when I cant talk to you.
Its breaking me - Anouk   sings like she is crying for our love that is separating....but the threads of our souls stretch across the distance ....and I write to fight the agony burning in my soul.

I am so in love with you --- you and I are one soul - we share the same soul -
And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

I Dont Believe You

Listen - this is for you my Penguin -
My SM
I already miss your eyes your touch, your smile, your hand and face

http://youtu.be/26EP0ght2kI

The passion's there so  its gotta be right...right?

I don't mind it
I don't mind at all
It's like you're the swing set and I'm the kid that falls
It's like the way we fight, the times I've cried, we come to blows
And every night the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?

[Chorus:]
No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No, I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend
To not love me at all

I don't mind it
I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams when you can't wake up
Looks like you've given up, you've had enough
But I want more no I won't stop
'cause I just know you'll come around... right?

[Chorus]

Just don't stand there and watch me fall
'cause I, 'cause I still don't mind at all
It's like the way we fight, the times I cry, we come to blows
And every night the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?

[Chorus]

I don't believe you

Pathos

Profound shifts of fate....occurred thus Pathos occurs...growing in our souls

Unloved

He wants to thwart my growth and asks that this "soul saver" "soulfulness" that I ignore and become a shallow....person with no meaning, direction or soul
When we lose the soul - there is a deeply divided sense of living

Demons

Chasing the demons and hatred from my mind
This is not who I want to be - because of my wounded heart soul and ego
I am becoming darkness when I use to shine a light like an angel
I am falling to a place of pessimism and the Universe atmosphere is absorbing these particles of destruction
Who have I become?

Once Believed

Once believed better to love and lose then never love at all
I change my mind today
Suffering from a broken being heart and soul
Easier not to care
I am now a believer of nothing...no magic, destiny fate or soul mates
Its all a tool for the devil to rip out our insides for the sake of "love"
Love shouldnt hurt
So never was it love
Was it?
FUCK THIS PAIN AND DESTRUCTION

FORGET

Forget - let go - black out on all our memories, made up of colors and dreams that are from movies and faritytales.

Let it go ...forget the light and turn it to black...remember that we were ships in the night and were only passing the lighthouse giving us a glimpse to the beautiful sea that awaits us elsewhere.

Sometimes...crossing paths is to just to inspire and help us to get through the darkness...but doesnt mean that we belong together.

Forget us - forget all we were and we can move to the other chapters of our lives.

I will always love you  - but you can forget that too..in order to move on.

Imprisoned Words

This place to be free now may be my prison
I am imprisoned by my constant thoughts of you and  so I lock them up on this page...as to express and release these emotions however, they are here in black and white, plain as day, as to be reminded that you will never be mine.

Letting go....

I do what I need to do to let go...to be free.
If it means believing you are not meant for me - I will make it my reality.
It takes discipline, words of affirmation and creating demons of deciet in my heart...to let you go.

You deserve to be loved and I am not the one for you.
Go be loved my dear one, go be loved by the one who can complete your world.

I can only hold you in limits and your time is too precious for me to occupy.

So I am letting you go moment by moment, day by day, week by week, and eventually you will become a distance memory.