Wednesday, March 20, 2013

2222

I Hate the Number 2 right now - it fucking finds me no matter what I am doing....
I am just working and a damn receipt I am trying to reconcile has "Table #222" or Invoice 2012222 or friggin phone numbers

DUMB DUMB DUMB

Its only been maybe 36 hours since we effin talked and its dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb

Overit.com

Want to hibernate and sleep my memory away so I can go on living without being constantly reminded of things I cannot control.

Serenity Prayer:

"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
"


As soon as I can get through 2 weeks I am sure I will be much better and better to deal with this shit.

The first days are the hardest...and eventually I will be able to love the life I live and live the life I love....however the haunting of what might have been right now is hindering my progression....

FUCK I WISH I COULD JUST FORGET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH

O well--- I really hope you are doing fantastic --- truly

I'll get there ---- just need a little time to get my routine different, change habits, and stop missing what captured my heart.

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