Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Please reply

I need my vitamin and I got that response I am sick to my stomach. Are you telling me you love me as a friend your not ok with us.., and i need to respect you and your family but you will always love me. Every time I try to make a plan for us to see each other or work out details you always say I don't know or I am not sure I can't think that far ahead makes me feel like its not important to you I am not important to you. Please fill me up I am but a body with an empty soul my heart feel like it is being ripped from my chest. I texted you and told you I miss your loving words and compliments and heart filled eyes that bring life to me and the response I got was that I am selfish in other words and need to think about others. And I am up alone right now reaching for any sense of reason of this affair. Any sense of if your love for me is real or if you are only saying u love me to save your life so that I don't ruin it if you break my heart. No matter how crazy I get that's one thing I know and you can be sure of I am not going to go boil your chickens okay? So please call me tomorrow... Text me blog me tell me what's happening here. Like I said a million times I just want you to be able to commit to me for when you return. I need some reassurance I am need your love... But if it is not true and it is not real but only a cover do that I don't go "psycho" then just fucking tell me now. I am only waiting to be with you when u return and if you have no intention to carry it out please just tell me something. The I don't knows and the lack of enthusiasm hurts.

When in doubt whip it out I need more than anything for you to whip it out love love love.... Do u have it or is that just a distant memory?

Fuck I miss you and quality time with you..

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I lobe u u make me mad sometimes im home i will call in a little bit just not sure im making u a better person ifly