Day 4

I caved on day 3 and still called you on Day 4 morning...which messes up the whole day. I waited for you during lunch and although thats the time that works for both of us...(me) not just your off time...you didnt call and blew me off when I called you. Annoyed, so instead of getting mad - I just texted you a pass not to call or text me as originally decided and with that - I will begin again to let you get the separation you have requested. I need to be respectful and let it go.I do know that I am a little insecure with you because I have been hurt from you before and to this day I doubt things when you are not into it like I am. Makes me question this...us...and me taking the chance for the sure thing...for what I believe is magic love. This magic love hurts me at times and makes me feel insecure, jealous at times and that cant be magic? No doubt passionate...but the always safe theory is not true...because I am so in love with you I cant be safe in that vulnerability...because I put my heart out there which could be crushed so easily.