I know that this is becoming more complicated.
I am in his presence and his acceptance of me ...and his professing of his love hurts me at times.
I wonder how is it that I could be so cold and betray him in such a way as I have.
My love for you is great and I am torn when I look at my son and I never want to hurt him.
What is this to be?
How am I to be?
I am in love and sad that to be in love I will hurt so many.