WTF?!

The question is why do I bother?

I fucking try to let you go – I try to give you space – I try to love you right and make you feel so important

And in all my efforts I am disappointed- let me down again

Never should’ve fallen in love

Sometimes – I want to take your heart and break it – because without you my heart is broken and I want you to feel my pain so you want to save me.

But because you love me and my heart and care to care for it – but no…

Once again I am  your second choice

Being your back burner girl –

You cant commit to a show with me

But you get off work early to hunt, you take off weeks to race

Your buddy is here so you plan to hike hours on end although I make dates for us so we can spend time – but it is ALWAYS me planning lunch dates / meet ups / aren’t I?

Yeah – how sad!!

You do come through a lot but its always me trying to see you, making plans….

WHAT THE FUCK!!?!!??!?!??!?
WHY AM I NOT WORTH MAKING PLANS FOR WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!??!?!