Marriage sucks

Working on it is hard work 

So when you open the gates to communicate about the heart of the matters or even the piddly little shit even as much as how you like your coffee it's fucking work

Trying it all now as soon as I commit to doing something in all or nothing you know me

It's 2 am and we can't talk without someone shutting down

Shutting down gets us nowhere and we are back to square one

Good times let me tell you 

Can we make it? Yesterday is say yes today I say fuck who knows but dammit without you in my life I'm going for it

The only thing that is different with him and you is he has that ring that insists he faces the confrontation and fuck I'll fight it out til there's no fight left in us

Because that's what I said I'm doing ... Every little issue that's been swept under the rug is being shaken out because I'd your gonna work ... Work 

We are always going to have problems all of us 

You me her you him I yep so do it no more of this picture perfect Facebook family photos lets talk and scream and cry until we get to the bottom of 

all the shit that's muddied our lives

Good luck I hope you approach it too. Confront it talk it cry hit yell it sweep it up and get rid of the shit because honestly nothing can work til we face the mess we have lived with

Hoarders of emotions clean our or get out

Fuck

Nothing in relationships are easy unless you buy bigger better more stiff to distract from the root of all that has gone wrong 

(I write to share my journey with you ... Because you are my BFF my journal my heartset and I'm going balls out to get my shit figured out... Thru the fires of hell to hopefully enlightenment... Fight for what we need to ...) 

See you on the other side here or in heaven wish me fucking luck marriage sucks when it goes unattended to thus long)

You opened my heart and my expectations are higher than ever but I will only stay in and be in love that conquers all ever or I'll die fucking alone