I don't know why I am so negative when I speak with you... I think in short the truth is, is I am always left wanting more
We will always be unfinished business
And with that I feel out of control
This whole situation is out of our control
I like to feel in control and this love has taken me on a trip and journey in which I cannot comprehend
My world has been turned upside down and somehow I become negative in this experience of mas love which negates what love stands for
From the love to the madness the unexplainable I am not the same
Love is the flow of God passing through us and fear is the evil force which creates doubt
I have known for sure that you are love that saved me and now I know that you are love which may save me again even with you leaving me ... Wanting more
Some day I will understand the meaning of all of this meeting
Some day when I reach heavens gates I will understand that this love is something which is forming me into my future self
I believe that someday this love which entraps my fearful mind will set me free to love without fear
I feel like this love is a recreation from my past and I wonder of it is revisiting me to learn the things my young mind then could not comprehend
And maybe now my soul is ready to know that which I could not with him
I just don't know the explanation for this crazy love will I ever know
You said stay where you are in the safe place of always knowing... Is that what you want for me? Us?
The fear in me agrees the heart in me fights for the other
What is in your heart and mind ?