And I think the reason it bothered me so much that you were so quick to sleep with her...was because I thought our "break" was to start our way to the heart culdesac...and start the separation at home...but you were quick to go home and "work it out with her" that time.
As I look back and see the things I wrote on that break...I was dying while you were at home "making love" - WOW
Weird...
UGH
Sick to my stomach
Oh well...whatever makes you happy --- you have to figure it out...our pending break 3 days to come...
FUCK I hate it - and can only imagine awful things...
But I guess thats part of the deal...and will really show me what I can deal with and willing to deal with.
Makes decisions easier -- when our minds wander and I wonder whats really going on ...and if there are any doubts I cant go that route...my heart cant bear to be broken and I cant live a life wondering if you really love me or wish you were with her.
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