A letter for you

As much as I love you right now could be because I'm fucked up but I feel like I need to reconnect with Dave really try. We had a crazy night tonight but it was full of communication I haven't had in a long time and I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I feel like we might be able to get back on track. You know the situation my girlfriend came over and I don't know if it will save or destroy us but it made us talk about matters of the heart... Love sex marriage having a third person in our life ... Who knows they may come together and leave me on my own but it's definitely opened up barriers because she makes us talk about needs wants and desires. You gave that to me naturally and there is no doubt in my mind that you are my soul mate. But time is what you need and so I have to give you that time and I need to give us time too to see If he and I can be love. Remember i love you... I hadn't loved anyone like you since  J died but you and i built a life maybe a prison ... But maybe this 3rd person will open up the barriers and allow me to be all I'm  meant to be with or without him. You need to connect with R again and find that trust and openess you have with me. I am needy and expressed that to him and you but tonight I really let him know what I need to hear and feel and he needs a lot from me that I haven't given in a long time. No matter what it's going to be work. To be honest as I'm writing all this I know you and I will be together again but time now is unknown we must go our own way for awhile. I miss your eyes your face your lips your heart your soul your kiss but you are my friend my love everlasting and if it's not this life it will be. You my love for a 1000 years my roots of the earth. You gave me life and heart and feelings again I thank you I cherish you.. But I don't want to be that crazy girl with you... That's not who I am ... Not now and as passionate as I feel for you I will destroy us if we keep going down that road. It's raining now and it smells like 20 years ago when I first fell In love.. I love you and I do love him too..., we have to water our own grass like the rain naturally and when the sun comes we will know which way to grow after the storm passes I love you my penguin my soul mate my love of my life but I don't want to destroy you ... I know love will find a way because that's what makes us tick and we need to tick like a clock to show we are alive you and I will find it.., we have to....but try where you are and I'll try too... And I know for sure if it's not this life the next you and I like the souls of the earth and trees like rainforest roots grown from centuries you and I will always intertwine again. My stomach is sick even Thinkin and saying this right now but I feel it's the only way you and I can ever grow in peace but to give our water to the ones who have given us their seeds ... You and I will always be together because we live in one another just like Jason lives in us... We are but bodies on this earth but our souls I know will always all ways meet again because Maktub
Read the Alchemist my love and we can be friends  in this life with this understanding someday hippie love free love I loved you freely when I first met you but now I have become obsessive compulsive possessive and that's not who I want to be and you could never love me that way I don't love myself thus way. Love you more than all the grains of sand on all the planets in all the universe you and I are connected forever lets get good with ourselves again. To be what we are meant to be in all the lives to come. I love you  BH ... I will always be your spirit wife.
Kao
In every nucleus of every atom of every cell of everything in this work
My love for you resides there because I have put it out there everyday... So you will never fit one second question my love for you.... It's real and if you can't see it you will always feel it in the energy that surrounds you because my love I love you and words alone could never give that to you but all the universe will penetrate you  that this love is absolute and exists everywhere you turn.

You inspire me my muse i love writing and feeling and thank you for giving me back my poetry my expression for my spirit
You are my soil mate my love you are you are you are Becayse nothing else in the world could make me say and feel do
Much

Lmao iflysmfe
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Infinitely
My prince charming
Someday some life some world we will be again
Ilybh
Love always your spirit wife