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Not sure how u r going to "call" me back I actually thought use have just pulled into town so I roughly I'd call u before you got home you treated like a fucking burden and you should be happy to hear from me get my calls and be excited to have a moment to spend time with me and want to spend your time with me as I am all so willing to give and put out there... I guess all of this Abd how you are with me and my ability to give all I want to give And share with you is so far out of my control I am grasping for any shred of hope that all of this was not for nothing but seems the more I reach the further you push away and I am sorry that my hearty and soul are do fucking invested I  am having a hard time severing this of that's what you want... And no I am too in love With you to just be your friend. I still don't know if you  are trying to tell me something based on your other blog response or what but where I stand do you? Is this real ... Living in the dark looking for the light in your eyes to save me
Callu office I guess or blog me with a time to call or just try to answer here... Will I see you when u get back are we going to have those days and nights together? Please tell me..my hope is there in those nights that we may share as the us I know we can be love misss us what I know we really are behind this mask of my insanity
I love u