Bob Marley

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
― Bob Marley

Think About It

“In a universe of ambiguity, this kind of certainty comes only once, and never again, no matter how many lifetimes you live.”
― Robert James Waller, The Bridges of Madison County

Rumi

Lovers dont finally meet somewhere
They are in each other all along

July Sometime

Sometimes you have to do what you don't like to get where you want to be.
I love love love love you Ben. You and I are what true love looks and feels like and we will be together soon Maktub... Because that's the way the path was written even before we were born.
I love you 2 much 2 much 4 ever
This may be one of the biggest challenges to my soul distancing myself from you...faith in us.. In your darkest night love will light your way back to me... Trust the face of love unseen ... We are meant to be.
Forever in your light always on your side within your darkest night forever near your light ...

June

"Finding one Important thing in your life doesn't mean you have to give up all the other important things".

I love sharing with. You all my insight as why we belong together and should be together but I have to share with u both sides. My insides hurt thinking that the possibility of us living our lives without this love forever however the fact that we even had the blessing of sharing  in such a moment is in itself worth living life.

"We can so easily flee from everything that we desire and which life do get oust places before us. Alternatively we can surrender ourselves to Divine Providence, take Gods hand, and fight for our dreams, believing that they always arrive at the right moment."

I love you do deeply I am full of tears... I don't understand what all of this means and may never in this life but I do know that it is eternal ... I miss u when you aren't near me and I think of you always .

Our Convos

Me: Its going to be tough

Him: But so worth it.

Him: Don’t be sad because of the people you will have to hurt to start living again. I love you all ways always.

Him: I love loving you – I love sneaking away to dream of us

Me: Do you want a 1 bedroom or 2 bedroom apartment

Him: A studio

Me: I have a son we would need a 2 bedroom so we could have privacy

Him: But the studio would be romantic

Me: Yes  it would

Him: You could write in one room while I paint, except I don’t paint

Me: it was such a romantic statement though

Him: I know

Me: You are having doubts

Him: What? you are the only thing I don’t doubt

Me:  I am honest and mean what I say.

Him: That’s what I love that about you

Him: I don’t always love what you say but I love that you mean what you say.

Him: I wish there was a word I could use to express my love for you I guess absolute would be as close as any

Him: Was that pure coconut or did it have like fruit in it

Me:Pure

Me: 100%

Him: Like my love 4 u

05/24/12

Me: My soul awakened upon our reuniting and I don't want to ever lose that . I hope that in these 9 days you and I can and will be certain exactly what we want. I know that I am a hard person to deal with

and if you don't choose me I will be sad but will be as happy as I can be that you Ben find your personal legend soulmate and ultimate happiness. I miss you already. And will be happy upon your return

as to fill my soul and return the piece that only you can fit into to complete me. My absolute I miss you already but so glad for the next few days I can call whenever I want :)

Him: I love you christina dont ever let it go hold on to my love with both hands

You are with me

Me: I love you Ben you are magic and as long as you are always this in love with me I will never let go of your love. You take my breath away. And I love it

Him: U can be my wife ily

Him: I want to turn around

Me: U melt me my absolute

Me: 222 thru 333 BC u me n jjs

Him: I love u

Me: Ilymamemaedaes (I love you more and more every minute and every second)  it grows and grows

Him: Its alway better when were together christina

Me: I know Ben it is!!!!!

Me: Love is the answer for most of the questions in my heart

Him: Im a true romantic not a charmer

Me: Bury the card in the beach and we will go look for it on our anniversary Friday the 13^th. Do you think there would be fireworks?

Him: That would be awesome we think alot alike

Him: Anytime me and you are on the beach their would b fireworks

6/7/11

Me: I am an onion there are many layers to me

later

Him: I was thinking you are not an onion you are a rose,

Me: layers of petals?

Him: yes but look out for the thorns

She kisses him madly

Me: You are my love story

 7/2/12

Me: My heart is broken

Him: Why?

Me: Why do you think?

Him: Its not broken its awoken.

07/31/12

Him: You cant move to Florida, because there are hurricanes and alligators and snakes ….

08/08/12

Him: I never believed in God until you

8/20/12:

Me: So I heard on Dr. Phil that relationships out of infidelity have a 70% failure rate

Him: Oh good we will be the 30%

Him: Did you call Dr. Phil and tell him that you have better chance of the Egyptions building pyramids then tearing us apart.

08/20/12

Him: I have never been addicted to anything in my entire life except you

You are my opium

Its better when I am busy and my mind is going a million miles a minute, when I have anytime to think you are all I think about.

My cousin said I have never seen you on your phone as much as you are now as long as I have known you,

9/6/12

Me: I just called to tell you I don’t like you

Him: That’s okay you don’t have to like me all the time..but you always have to love me

9/11/12

Me: I don’t like you

Him:  I don’t care if you don’t like me but you better love me

The Good Fight by Paulo Coelho (Good Read)

The Good Fight

by Paulo Coelho on March 6, 2013

In 1986, I went for the first and only time on the pilgrimage known as the Way to Santiago, an experience I described in my first book. We had just finished walking up a small hill, a village appeared on the horizon, and it was then that my guide, whom I shall call Petrus (although that was not his name), said to me:
- We must never stop dreaming. Dreams provide nourishment for the soul, just as a meal does for the body. Many times in our lives we see our dreams shattered and our desires frustrated, but we have to continue dreaming. If we don’t, our soul dies

‘The Good Fight is the one we Fight because our heart asks it of us.The Good Fight is the one that’s fought in the name of our dreams. When we are young our dreams first explode inside us with all of their force, we are very courageous, but we haven’t yet learned how to Fight. With great effort, we learn how to Fight, but by then we no longer have the courage to go into combat. So we turn against ourselves and do battle within. We become our own worst enemy. We say that our dreams were childish, or too difficult to realize, or the result or our not having known enough about life. We kill our dreams because we are afraid to Fight the Good Fight.

“The first symptom of the process of killing our dreams is lack of time. The busiest people I have known in my life always have time enough to do everything. Those who do nothing are always tired and pay no attention to the little amount of work they are required to do. They complain constantly that the day is too short. The Truth is, they are afraid to Fight the Good Fight

“The second symptom of the death of our dreams lies in our certainties. Because we don’t want to see life as a grand adventure, we begin to think of ourselves as wise and fair and correct in asking so little of life. We look beyond the walls of our day-to-day existence, and we hear the sound of lances breaking, we smell the dust and the sweat, and we see the great defeats and the fire in the eyes of the warriors. But we never see the delight, the immense delight in the hearts of those engaged in the battle. For them, neither victory nor defeat is important; what’s important is only that they are Fighting the Good Fight.

“And, finally, the third symptom of the passing of our dreams is peace. Life becomes a Sunday afternoon; we ask for nothing grand, and we cease to demand anything more than we are willing to give. In that state we think of ourselves as being mature; we put aside the fantasies of our youth, and we seek personal and professional achievement. We are surprised when people our age say that they still want this or that out of life. But really, deep in our hearts, we know that what has happened is that we have renounced the battle for our dreams-we have refused to Fight the Good Fight.

“When we renounce our dreams and find peace, we go through a period of tranquility. But the dead dreams begin to rot within us and to infect our entire being. We become cruel to those around us, and then we begin to direct this cruelty against ourselves.

“What we sought to avoid in combat-disappointment and defeat-came upon us because of our cowardice. And one day, the dead, spoiled dreams make it difficult to breath, and we actually seek death. It’s death that frees us from out certainties, from our work, and from that terrible peace of Sunday afternoons.”