Daunting

Maybe I create all these stories in my head
It's hard not to when you don't hear I have said
My love is not free it entraps my soul
To be loved in return is all I need to be whole
This mess of beauty and darkness can not convey how I feel
So alive at one moment the other my heart is so ill
My longing to be loved by you daunts my very existence
Giving so much being faced with resistance
To have faith is a task I fight everyday
When I'm left abandoned not a word that I say
Has any affect or not worth your time it's time that I face you will never be mine

Please acknowledge my feelings how I feel
Acknowledge it ... To completely ignore me and make no attempt to communicate with me or take to heart my broken heart is like jabbing me with a dagger and killing me
But even death may be better than the pain of you not caring

Gone

It could have been so simple but you turned this into chaos
Your charming words a disguise just enough to make me fall in love
And leave me distorted with visions of grandeur love that never really existed I your heart for me
Your delay and reason or shall I say excuses as to why you couldn't leave get "at least for now" but really you meant never
You vowed to take care of her and your vows held true
I suppose that should be a trait I admire but the constant pulling of my heart to you only to cut me off like a fishing line stuck on a branch in the empty sea
I am floating in wonderment how I was never enough never good enough all you said is that I was all you ever dreamed of your " angel" but now I am your angel of death which you can now only remember as a distant memory
Life sucked out of me and now I am gone
You'll never have to choose now
Your love filled me full of life now it has suffocated any sense I had and now I am gone forever
Dead

The Rose

We have had a good run of things I suppose
My heart has withered like a rose
My petals crimson red from the blood I have shed have been given to you in their full bloom
I am nothing but thorns in this storm however I know the sun will shine again
And someday I will open able to love again
The rain of my tears will nourish my roots and I'll be able to be give again to another soul in which will appreciate my scent and beauty
Until then I know that this seed will grow again in everlasting light
And because of our time I have learned that I must save the best for last
Everlasting love

Worried

I know I push you to the Nth degree wishing you'd have time for me
However I know I push too far tip open so many scars
I love you I'm sorry for my selfish ways
I'm worried your falling to disarray
I love you so much and care for you
Please forgive my egotistical truths
Your amazing my love the one I care so much
Can't imagine this life without your you touch
I love you please take care of yourself

Eternal Love

"you have to keep breaking your heart until it opens". -Rumi

When our eyes connect pupil to pupil iris to iris souls intertwine
And it's as if every scar is open again from every life we ever lived together
I bleed again and the words "I love you" is like salt and lemon being squeezed and poured into my existence
Reminding me that this life we have chosen to only meet...but not so blessed to combine our love into the loving cup of glory we know that we so desire
My thighs twitch and I feel this throbbing between my legs
My heart beats faster, my mind races to islands where no one but you and I exist
I see sunsets and sunrises with a glance and your smile takes me to places only the greatest discoverers of the real world have ever seen
I miss you before you leave but know you live in me and so I live in you
And love this extraordinary will be eternal

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